December 2009
I’m leaving for a few days. Elise, Samboy and I are going up to a cabin in bethal for a night and then we’re staying at Samboy’s moms house for the other night in Albany maine on her organic farm. I’ll have no internet, no phone, no way of communication or television for 3 days. HAPPIEST PERSON!
I’ve been looking forward to this for months. Its time to disappear and...
I want a smaller room.
Its frustrating to me to hear so much secret complaining out of you. You spent more money on a gift for me, and now you’re throwing around “I feel like I care more for her than she does for me” What? Are you seriously saying this? I hear all the time that you get frustrated that I’m not spending enough time with you, or I’m with someone else, and now you’re...
And I’m just so content here. Right now. Right where I am.
GIRAFFE CALENDAR, $100 DOLLARS TO ARTIST SUPPLY, CASSETTES AND NICE WORDS AND TIME!
I’m pretty sure I got everything I wanted for christmas and more, and I couldnt be more grrateful. Seriously the happiest person with such wonderful people and wonderful everything and I love everything.
Christmas gifts: Shit load of acryslic paint, pastels, painting paper, brushes + really nice pens<3. Headphones, super lots of insense, silver needle tea, patchouli and egyptian goddess...
I hate deciding not to go downstairs and make tea because the family is sitting around a like ghost mystery show and talking about it, and I’m just plain ol’ to scared about that shit to even proceed with the tea making.
ONE MISSION: Drive to chinese food place to get the people who dont care about dinner some food. Get Sydney Tofu and vegetables on account she dont eat nun dat meat. Come home, Sydney opens.
-Tofu
- Vegetables
- PORK FRIED RICE
mommas fav
hahaha sweet I dont have to worry about gloves or mittens for the rest of my life.
I am making sure that every fucking second and moment of this vacation is nice. I’ve been having the best morning and feeling so happy to like be able to do whatever I want in a day, with no obligations to stressful and time wasting occupations or “educational” teachings. I’ve been 100% content with everything going on and where I am and the people I’m with, even if...
STOOP MAN NEVER LEAVES HIS STOOP!
This room is so large for me, I feel like I have to fill so much of it. Theres so much space, so much room to move around and I’m the only one moving around in it. I dont need this much space. Vacation is such a weird thing for me to get into. It’s hard for me to transition into having all the time to plan, and it makes me so excited and happy. I dont have to work till Monday and so...
Living this crazy sun of a life is getting really interesting. Interesting in a good way and in a bad way.
ohh god
CITYYEAR INTERVIEW IN FUCKING 7 MINUTES.
nervous nervous butterflies nervous.
fuck ittt fuck it fuck it whatever then.\
fuck it
Emotions in motion over here. God gosh shit god shit gosh. Such an emotional roller coaster and I hate it. I hate it! Everything is on like high transition and I am at the top of the tower holding a metal rod getting striked with such intense bursts of tears and anger and love and frustration. I shouldn’t let out of the house today,
I have a habbit of saying mean things in a totally joking way. Sometimes I get really scared after I say them that people will actually get legit upset about it, but I really mean no harm at all. It’s just a habbit and sometimes I feel like a bitch for it. I would never say these things seriously though and they are never actually like personal attacks. I dont know, I just kind of want to...
Christmas gifts all wrapped. Pressures off.
Collecting cassettes is a nice hobby, but i get sad when they begin to wither and the music is noticably being distorted. No fun.
Ive gotten invited to a 2 keg westbrook party, a party with jake regier and luke opperman and maybe patrick russel, wolfe asked me to hangout, corey and aron want to drink, and I dont want to do anything. I want company though and I hate how drinking is an activity now that people would rather do than just be with someone else.
I feel lonely and I want to do something, I want to be with someone....
I miss a lot of people, I find myself talking about them often recently. Lastnight was really nice, Kawtar, Courtney and I went into the cave in Courtneys room to listen to a playlist Courtney made and drink some wine. Later we decided we wanted more people over so we god Alex, Sean, and Hudson to come on over, and it ended up being a really nice time.
We ran into Chris Dirocco and Zach Higgins...
life.
Life is going to fast for me to function in. I’m content where I am, even though everday it seems like I flew over to a new galaxy trying to find my way around. The dogs have been coming in my room. This has never happened before, they just sit by my feet with no need for attention, just company. We can relate to eachother.
It makes me sad the brisk cold air is preventing me from the...
homework takes too long when its on the computer, too many distractions. Samanthas home but shes not very happy about it and I’m to distracted with homework to really talk to her right now.
I can feel myself running to places I’ve never seen before. I feel there all the time. My body rests unrestless inside places that drive me crazy based souly on just having to be there. I can feel myself go crazy. I can feel myself slipping away into the cracks on the side walks. Into the space between the lines. I feel everywhere, and I’m going crazy.
I want to be outside, but the...
I just want to live. So thats my new plan. I’m going to walk through like just living. I’m going to stop caring about dumb shit that I dont need to care about, just go out and doing things. That is my new years resolution.
cumjones:
redgiraffe:
I get the feeling you think you’re hot shit. You arn’t that great and I dont think everyone is out to be just like you.
but this guy is hot shit.
Guido alert
Oh hey, my tumblr is like a soft porn breast site of beautiful ladies.
I get the feeling you think you’re hot shit. You arn’t that great and I dont think everyone is out to be just like you.