December 2011
sleeping in
so wonderful! so enjoyable! I feel so nice and right now im going to go to a wonderful bath to relax my muscles and begin my day with old friends i havent seen since i traveled through chicago.
no fears, death is only to live and there is no...
In a house full of people, I feel alone all the...
I can’t seem to grasp it, I cant seem to pull myself up from this hole ive dug. Everything seems completely fine one minute, and the minute after im a jumbled up mess of junk. Things can’t seem to feel okay. Things can’t seem to fall into place.
change is coming.
.
its hard to know what to do with myself around this time. I am constantly making lists in my mind, constantly thinking of projects to keep me busy. When I’m alone though, I can’t seem to help but sink.
I miss you, but I can’t be with you. Not like this.
Who you are and who you want to be.
Do you ever start drinking beer and feel like the drunk doesnt hit you, and then converse with someone and finally realize the drunk is there? Yelling, hostility.
I am lost.